Abandoning the World that Abandoned Me: One of My Trickiest Defense Mechanisms

Jamie Toth
4 min readDec 3, 2021

Trigger Warning: It’s a triggery article about triggers. I’ve had some extremely abusive experiences and will be frank about what they were without being detailed about what the abuse itself entailed.

The last couple of weeks have been challenging for me when it comes to determining my emotional state. It’s sometimes hard for me to differentiate between something that’s fundamentally healthy vs. some quirk of my personality due to my cPTSD, and for the last couple of weeks this has been extremely…

Jamie Toth

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